Have you ever experienced the magic of Krishna? Have you gazed into His beautiful eyes and seen His love pouring out of them?
My Childhood Krishna
I have loved Krishna since I was born. My grandmother told me stories of Krishna when I was a little girl. She even saw Krishna once when I was a child and I heard her calling out His name in her half-asleep, half awake state. We had a beautiful picture of Guruvayurappan in my home and we would sing Bhajans and my grandmother would light a lamp for Him and make delicious payasam for Him.
I would look into His eyes and every day I would get some message from Him. Most of the time, He would look at me, His eyes filled with love, and smile benevolently. Some days, though, there would be a slight disciplining look in His eyes and I would know immediately that I had done something naughty and He was telling me to own up my mistake.
I started talking to Him, right from my childhood and He would respond. I never really asked Him for anything, but I loved to thank Him for all His precious gifts. He was my confidant and I would share my feelings with Him, which He understood so perfectly. But I didn’t know much about Him, other than the stories my grandmother would relate and the few books I would read about Him. He was my guardian angel, I knew without doubt.
As I grew up, I got involved in living my life, my studies, my friends and events happening around me in my day to day life. I did remember Krishna, but it was not on a regular basis. I knew He was around, but I was not so connected with Him every day.
Krishna’s Lotus Feet
And then it so happened that life gave me some challenges and I started reading the Bhagavad Gita for answers to my questions. I could understand the Reality about Krishna and found solace at His Lotus Feet. Slowly my life started transforming and I became Krishnapriya with my first book coming out from the depth of my soul.
I would look at Krishna’s Lotus Feet every morning when I woke up and then I could see Krishna all day in everything and everyone around me. In meetings, people would be talking about important issues and I would be lost in my world of Krishna, where I could see His eyes, full of love and compassion for me. The issues would get resolved on their own and I would be smiling peacefully.
Krishna’s Magic had begun
I would discuss all my thoughts with Him and hear His beautiful flute playing some sweet melody in answer to my question. Then I would forget my question and be lost in His magic. Radha and Krishna’s eyes would always be pouring their love on me and I could see tears flowing from them. I don’t know when all my problems started disappearing and love started flowing in my life from all sources. Everyone became Krishna for me and I for them, and only love was real. Everything else was an illusion.
Flowers were blooming everywhere and their fragrance was magic, Krishna’s magic. The Sun was shining brightly and He too was Krishna. The trees whispered in the wind and kept taking Krishna’s name. Birds and animals were chirping and talking only about Krishna. All of creation started dancing with Krishna and He was always playing His beautiful flute and awakening His love in every heart. I could see Him everywhere I went.
My magical journey towards complete Surrender
Hereafter all that happened has been Krishna’s infinite grace and blessings descending on me every moment of every day. I got my music back after a long gap and I started singing His praises every day. I wrote two more books, Little Ms Death and Samarpan. I did not sing a single note and write a single word. My voice sang by itself and always sang only for Krishna. My hands typed words by themselves and only for Krishna. It has all been magical every moment and I sometimes cannot believe it myself. This is the magic of Krishna I am talking about.
Every breath I take is only for Krishna. And I am waiting for that beautiful moment when I will merge with Him forever. He will come to take me Home, I know and I have asked Him for this favor, I wish to see all the beautiful Gods and Goddesses I have always read about and seen pictures of, my beautiful Shiva and Shakti, my beloved Ganesha and Kartik, my reverant Ram and Sita and Hanuman, my peaceful Saraswati Maa, my idol my lovely Radha, before finally merging with my beloved Krishna forever. Om Namo Bhagawate Vasudevaya.
Blog Submitted by: Dr. Anuradha Iyer
Dr. Anuradha is a deep Krishna devotee, holds an MBBS, MD, Diploma in Family medicine, Visharad in Hindustani classical vocal music,Working as Professor and Head of the Department of Physiology in SHKM, Govt Medical College, Mewat, Haryana and has written 3 books in English and got them translated in Hindi. Her recorded bhajans are available as a CD and she also has her youtube channel.
